As a young boy, I loved the Lord. When I hear some messages at times, it burns in my heart but because it was like the wayside heart at that time, I soon forget what I heard and continue to manifest the works of the flesh. I was passionate about Jesus then and wished the whole world would accept Him but I too was unregenerated. When I run into problems, I know how to fast and pray to God and He always miraculously get me out of them all. While in the boarding school, because none of our male teachers were Christians, we Christians used to be at the receiving end, so I started a Christian fellowship and we used to pray for our dominance in the hostel and God truly answered. While a day student was the senior prefect, I as a boarder was made the assistant senior prefect. I remember a particular case of some Christian students that were bed wetting and the boys from the other faith were mocking them, I called a secret gathering and we prayed and the Lord did not only delivered them, the leader of the other faith among the boys started bed wetting! Somehow I was conscious of God’s calling but it was only zeal I had at that time. But many years later, when God appeared and said it was time, I whipped up a thousand reasons why it cant be me and that he should look for anyone else!
After Moses discovered his true identity in Pharaoh’s palace, he sought to deliver the Israelites by his will power, he had zeal but no heavenly backing except protection. Though he was the one to be used, but not with his human strength. If by his strength, how many Egyptians will he kill before he gets to pharaoh? The Lord had to send him into the wilderness for forty years to break him totally. When God appeared to him, he was truly and totally broken. He that was zealous enough to kill someone forty years ago was not willing anymore because he saw his unworthy state.
There might be some things you had passion for while as a kid but you couldn’t sustain it and it seems it is dead. But now there are gentle nudging you are receiving from the Holy Spirit but you are trying to play it under that it is no longer possible, yield yourself to Him, you are the next wonder that the Lord want to reveal to the world as a great instrument for His kingdom. Everybody will not be a preacher but everybody can be greatly used by God.
Prayer point: 1) Father Lord please make me ready for Your use.
2) Father Lord stir up every dormant gifts in me in Jesus name.